Since I moved out of my parents house in 2010, I have lived in a different location every single year. It has been quite the adventure, but I have wondered to myself if there is a place in my life that I could really consider calling home. It's hard to feel that way when you're always changing where you live. since Jon and I have been married, we have lived now in 4 different spaces within about a year and a half. CRAZY. So here I sit, thinking of where to call home, in a new city at a new coffee shop with an old longing. Jon and I consider ourselves restless souls, always loving a new adventure and a change in pace or location. It somehow fills us with energy and purpose to be travelers and chasers of unchartered roads. I know, I know. I'm writing this post complaining about the adventure I seem to keep bumping into. It's just that there is still a place in my heart that yearns for a space to call home. In some ways however, I can't help feeling a sense of "home" in each place we have lived. I want to pay tribute to the most recent places we have lived, as a form of goodbye. In each place there has dwelled a beautiful journey. In each space enclosed by manmade walls there were memories and smells and feelings and moments that I want to remember, that made up our first year or two of adventuring together. In my search for a home, I take time to remember the old ones I have enjoyed, and the times I won't forget as I move on.
The Lady's Choice
Here is the living room I shared with Bri Giles. We lived in this apartment together for just under a year. This was my favorite room, it had magnificent natural light and carried memories of long nights with friends and New Girl during the fall with hot spiced cider all wrapped in blankets. Bri and I were so excited to pick out furniture and that rug (Ikea, of course) the first week when we moved in. We made a spreadsheet of who gets what after we moved out, and spent way too much of our single-ladies money. I remember talking on the porch many summer nights, sneaking into the hot tub during winter, and breakfast for dinner all the time. We decorated for christmas together and got ready for work in our nice and mostly clean bathroom. I loved those days, it is so fun to live with your dear friends for the short seasons in life that present itself like this one.
To save money for the wedding, I moved into some friends of mine's basement and lived there with my sister Katie for about 3 months. Katie just so happened to be wedding-planner certified, so it was extremely nice to be living with her during those short and busy months of getting things ready for the big day. We spent lots of time sitting on the floor, drinking wine and making wedding decorations, planning color schemes and going over venue details. We also spent some time fighting over the bathroom and stealing each other's clothes, as all good sisters do. I loved those months with her though. I'll always love living with my sisters for however long it may be, and however many cat fights we have, because they will always be my best friends.
Our First Space
This was the first little space Jon and I shared as a married couple! It was pure bliss to enjoy endless sleepovers, cooking dinner together, 1-on-1 game nights and movies in the small space of 710sq. feet. It was just big enough to house our growing love for each other for the time being. the picture of the balloons on the table was of my birthday, when Jon surprised me with a little pile of gifts, cupcakes and balloons when we were really low on money. It was such a sweet memory to me, seeing how sacrificial and thoughtful his love for me was. Though it was a cozy beginning, we quickly realized due to both of us having freelance jobs, that we definitely needed more space. I grew weary of having our living room being inhabited by recording gear, wires and cables running all over the place and everything else Jon needed to continue building his music business. So we decided to find a home to invest in our careers and also to not kill each other. Our next house was our favorite, but the story gets more interesting.
The House On Fontanero
Located Downtown Colorado Springs, this house was our first love. It had so much character and charm. Wood floors, quaint fireplace, sunroom in the back, open kitchen with granite counters, and those WINDOWS! we were drooling. We also adopted our first fluffy puppy named Remington (Remi for short) in this house. We'd take him for a walk every night around the neighborhood and he loved sleeping in our bed when he was a good boy. We'd listen to records and open all the windows when it was hot in the summer. It was a wonderful 6 months... until the people who owned the place decided they wanted to move back in. I don't blame them, but that didn't mean I had to like their decision... On to the next house!
Fish Hawk Point
So, this move was our third one in a year. For a newly married couple, this was a lot of change, but this house was such a blessing in a crazy time. It was beautiful and clean, with two stories and a garage (our first one). So much room for activities! This photo is of my favorite loft room, where my creativity began to blossom. I made way too many paper cranes in there and splattered multiple colors of paint on the wall (thank God for touch-up paint). I started this blog sitting at that desk Jon built for me, and that was a big step forward in my creativity. I felt like I could do anything in there... and just like that we encountered more transition. But I think I'll save that story for another time.
So. Where is home? I'm still not quite sure locationally. It's definitely something we're learning to build. We now live in another house as of 5 days ago, in another town I'm unfamiliar with. How long does it take to establish "home"? Is this the life God made for us? to be mobile? To move around, always fighting to keep it all together, carefully remembering and executing many spinning details and schedules... I will be honest, I am not sure. Jon and I both believe in the Sovereignty of God, and that no matter where we are He will always provide for us. We know we are under His will, and that no scheme of the enemy can take that away from us. And above all, I know God. Is. So good. So in times of uncertainty, I have learned that there is definitely one place that I can ALWAYS call home. It is found in the consistent and steady presence of our Father. He is always with me, in every house, apartment, city or state. I'll tell you what, I've never felt the homeliness of God more than through the past year and a half. I have finally found where my soul can rest, where I can reside and not feel confused or alone or unsafe. I can't begin to explain what happens when we invite Jesus into our situations, into the chaos and craziness of all the change that seems to be following us. He has made his Presence my home. This story that He's writing of our lives is most definitely an adventure, but adventure can only come if something falters or goes wrong from the original plan. This can cause confusion, fear, loneliness, a sense of direction lost. But if we are to enjoy and fully step into the adventure, we must have faith. If we are to have strong faith, we must trust and KNOW our Father who is going to lead us through the journey with peace and joy. I have been finding that no matter where I am, because He is with me, I will always know I am home in Him.